Thursday, May 31, 2007

The Daily Dime: A House on the Lake

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The desert sun beat down. There was no life for miles, though there were scant signs of life once present. The desert traveler had learned many miles ago to quit turning his head. His scorched neck could no longer abide the twisting, and his addled senses could no longer abide the turning. The traveler's eyes had almost become useless vestiges. Reminders of what it was like to see.

The traveler had to stop to rest his legs. He fell to his knees and heard loud snapping, an obvious indication that he was very much in need of water. The hulking traveler bent over, resting his hands on his knees. He hated not being able to put anything at rest in the hot sand without igniting. After a brief stop, he stood straight and tried to stretch his back, but everything about him had become so dried and stiff that he was afraid he'd cut himself open.

Resigning to the stiffness, he trudged on.

After hours of silent walking, he began to see the sun dried and heat bleached corpses of his brothers. Friends and family, all of them. The traveler briefly regretted having no water to spare for tears for his brothers. He did stop at one body and gingerly lifted the hand out of the sand. He held it and looked into the dried sockets where eyes should have been.

“I'm so sorry. We feared drought, and it took us through a desert. Soon I'll be dead like you.” The traveler held the hand, and started to choke on what should have been tears, but came out as dry coughs and sporadic heaves. Dropping the hand, he kept walking. The dogs of despair and hope raged in him. He tried to run, but couldn't tell if he was running or if it was sun insanity. The dogs raged deep within his chest, causing his body to wrack with spasms and sobs.

The traveler fell to the ground and yelled at the desert floor. This seemed to quiet the dogs fighting in his heart. Despair satiated with the realization that he would die. Hope satisfied that he would die only after fighting. The traveler stayed on all fours for a moment while the violence of the dogs subsided. Then he cursed himself for falling into the sand. It was a struggle to stand, and more than his feet had been burned. His hands, which he'd been careful to protect, were burned, as were his forearms, knees, shins. Or rather, the equivalents thereof.

After much effort, he was able to ignore the pain that coursed through his entire body and trudge through what he was sure were to be his final steps.

His steps were much slower now. Much more pained. The traveler couldn't even lift his head enough to see what was in front of him. He was so convinced of his coming death that he didn't notice when he was up to his knees in water.

He stopped and thought.

“It's got to be an illusion,” he said. Not wanting to miss a chance at water, something he very badly needed, he scooped his hand into the puddle and brought it to his mouth. He felt water in his mouth, and felt it around his knees.

“If this is a hallucination,” he said, “it's as good of a place to die as any.” He set himself heavy in the pool and pushed, trying to push his feet into the sand when he noticed a body partially submerged a few feet in front of him. He leaned forward to get a better look.

It was an elderly woman. Gaunt and pale. He shook his head out of remorse for the woman and proceeded to go about his business.

A hand and a shriek reached up and grabbed him at the shoulder, and the woman scrambled to him. He scooped her up into his massive limbs. She was much closer to death than he was, though it was a very close race.

“Are you a tree?” she asked. “You feel like a tree. There used to be trees here.” He nodded.

“I am a tree.” The woman seemed to relax against his bark.

“At least I die in the arms of a tree,” she said. He nodded. She looked back into his eyes and spoke, “I'm not really this old. I'm young as far as lakes and trees are concerned.” He nodded.

“Me too.”

“I only look old because I'm dying. All my sprites, nymphs and spirits left. I'm all alone.” The tree watched the lake's face droop, mouth bent into a frown. “You look like you would have been a handsome tree. Trees don't travel often. If you want, you can have what's left of my water.” The tree nodded.

“I would thank you for your gift and put it to good use.” He continued to hold the lake as he dug his roots deep into what was left of the lake bed, trying not to be too eager to drink up what was left of her water. She smiled up at him as he dug. “You know, you look like you would have been a beautiful lake.” She chuckled slightly.

“You should have seen me. This land used to be a forest, you know. But there was a fire, and all my spirits left out of fear of the fire. But being a lake, I'm tied to the land. The trees all died from the fire or from exposure. A few tried to leave, but they were too damaged by the smoke and the heat.

“After that, I became a desert and started to die.” The tree nodded.

“I passed my dead brothers a few miles ago. They left our home in the swamp because some animal spirits told us a plague was coming to the swamp and we needed to leave. They left in a hurry, but I stayed as long as I could. We didn't know that there was a desert at our borders.”

“At least we don't die alone,” said the lake.

“At least we don't die alone,” said the tree.

“And,” said the lake, “we can hope the rain comes by. She might be able to save us. I think she's obligated, especially since I used to be a forest.” The tree nodded hesitantly.

The pair stared in each other's eyes for a short while before sleep overtook both of them.

A short time later, the desert was covered in clouds, and a light thunderstorm touched the surface of that rock for the first time in a decade.

With each drop, the lake looked younger.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Please Accept My Humblest Apologies

So, since Ireland, I've felt an unusual amount of motivation, but working in direct contravention to my motivation, my mind has nothing with which to be motivated. Which is weak. Lame.

As such, I've decided to sort of push my mind into gear. I've turned one of my journals into my manuscript book, and I'm going to dedicate to one and only one manuscript. The book isn't written. Far from it. As of tonight, I have almost two pages of story to its name. However, this is the foreword I plan to put in front of the book.

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In the grand tradition of books and the written word, it is my understanding that books share two common denominators. The first is words which are often constructed in a way so as to communicate ideas and concepts and, if one is lucky enough, emotions.

The second thing books share is the foreword. I've never entirely understood the purpose of the foreword. It seems to me to be the stage on which the author sets his piece and makes an illusory case. This case is the one he presents which makes it seem as if you don't like or disagree with his book, the fault is your own and not his.

He sets up an apologetic for his book. A defense designed to help you understand the book and hopefully be sympathetic to the author's goal and perhaps overlook a few oversights.

So the author apologizes for his book.

In the grand tradition of apologies and literary apologetics, let me say sorry.

Sorry.

I'm sorry for the contents of this book. Every word in here might not be true, but it's certainly truth, and I'm sorry things have to be this way. I'm sorry that things don't have to be this way, but are. I'm sorry that so many of us feel powerless to change us, and those that feel they have power often lack direction.

I'm sorry that this is happening to your brother. I'm sorry that it's happening to your dad, and your coworker, and that kid you made fun of in high school. I'm sorry that it's happening to me, and I'm sorry that it's happening to my friends.

We're sorry that it's happening to us.

However, to simply apologize isn't enough and is practically nothing. It's merely step one. I hope that this book, an illusory tale of smoke and shadows, makes up for the apology and actually helps to change things. Maybe it will help show a way to change.

Let's find a better way to be.

Sunday, May 6, 2007

The Daily Dime: Strength.

it's been awhile since i've made a story. this is the big push before ireland, however. let's "get it on." also, this is my monday story. i just highly doubt i'll have time to write/post this monday, but i didn't want to miss it. as such, here y'go!

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The boy lie dying.

Cancer had ravaged his eight year old bones, and had been eating a hole for the past two months into his stomach. His 36 year old mother cried two year old tears, and his 15 year old sister nursed one year old anger. His 43 year old father absent for the last 7 years of his adolescent life.

The boy lie dying, and the boy lie silent.

His mother sat down next to him and grabbed his hand. She pressed it to her mouth, kissing as if the harder she kissed, the healthier her son would become. He opened his eyes and smiled.

“Hi mom,” he said calmly.

“Hey baby,” she said. “How do you feel?” she asked.

The boy shrugged and then responded, “I feel alright. I'm thirsty.” His sister handed him water and he drank. After a moment he gave the glass back to his sister and then spoke.

“I talked to daddy.” His mother almost dropped his hand.

“You what? Son... he hasn't been around for a long time. I think you might be confused,” rationalized his mother. He shook his head.

“No. It was daddy. He told me he was sorry for leaving. Told me to tell you that he was coming back home, but it won't be for a long time. He hopes that you'll forgive him.” His sister stopped in her deep sobs and looked with disbelief at her little brother. He looked back at her, craning to see behind his bed and said, “Daddy says he's really proud of the way you've turned out. He doesn't know he is yet, but he will be. He also said he'll buy you a car when he comes home. A red one.” The boy's sister turned his back on him as she cried harder. The boy turned back around to look at his mother. She smiled at her son and stroked his hair.

“Honey, mommy has to go talk to the doctor's really quick. Can I get you anything before I leave?” he shook his head. “Do you hurt anywhere?” he shrugged his shoulders and said,

“I'll be alright.” She nodded and then left the room, closing the door behind her. A few minutes later she came back and resumed her perch on the chair next to the bed. The boy's sister was on the other side, kneeling at his bed side holding his hand, her head resting on the bed at his side. His mother picked his hand back up. She sat in silence for a minute.

The doctors cautioned her that the boy was probably in his final moments and that he was most likely suffering hallucinations. The result of his body releasing hormones into the blood stream and the various medicine cocktails flowing in his bloodstream. His mother was prepared for many things, but the loss of her son was not one of them. Her shaking hand began to stroke the side of his head, running her fingers through his hair.

“It's OK to cry,” she said. “You don't have to be strong. You can cry if you want to.” Two years the boy had fought this battle with cancer, and not once had he cried. Not once had he complained, questioned, criticized or resisted. He complied with every treatment given him, and never had his good humor wavered. Her voice cracked as she said, “why do you have to be so strong? You don't have to be so strong!” The boy looked at his mother and yawned.

“But strong is all I know how to be,” he said. Then he closed his eyes and he slept.

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